I Want It All!

Oh, these two cubs!







This is how it’s supposed to go:  On Mondays, Cub 2 separates his dirty clothes into three piles (whites, colors, darks) in the hallway in front of the washer and dryer closet.  I wash them, dry them, fold them, and place them on his bed so that he can put them away when he gets home from school.  On Tuesdays, Cub 1 does the same with his dirty clothes.  I think it’s a pretty good deal for them.  They are both old enough and capable of doing their own laundry, but since I’m at home and I love them dearly and I’m always trying to win the Mother of the Year Award, it’s one chore that I’ve taken off of their hands.  That is, unless they miss their assigned wash day.  In that case, they have to wash for themselves on the weekend.  I don’t do weekend laundry.

I’m not sure why, but this week my boy cubs got under my skin.  I was just a tad bit annoyed with them.  You see, both Monday while doing Cub 2’s laundry and yesterday while doing Cub 1’s laundry, I discovered dirty clothes in their rooms and even still in their hampers or jumbled up on the floor of their closets.  In my mind, if someone is willingly washing, drying, and folding my clothes each week, I’m going to put everything that needs to be laundered out in the hallway.  I just don’t understand why they would hold back dirty clothes that stink up their room and add to the overall junkiness of their cluttered spaces!  I am willing to wash ALL of their funky clothes, so why not give me ALL of them?

So, I’ve spent the past two days trying to figure out why I was so annoyed with my boys over not giving me all of their laundry.  Less work for me, right?  God, what do you want me to learn from this?  Why am I so bothered by this?!

When are you going to start giving me your ALL? I ask for your ALL every single day, but you don’t give everything to me.  Every day I ask you to put your trust in me, but you’re still holding on to that thing…those things.  Every day I ask for ALL, but you hold on to that cub’s behavior problems in school.  Every day I ask for ALL, but you keep feeding your temple the wrong foods.  Every day I ask for it ALL, but you keep your thoughts bottled up inside.  I want your whole heart.  I want your whole life!  When are you going to start trusting me with ALL of you and stop giving me only the stuff that you think is too big for you to handle?  Give it ALL to me!  The little things that (you think) you’re handling on your own , as well as the big things that started out little, but because you thought you could handle them, they turned into big things that you finally gave to me.  I want it ALL!

Well, then…I’m going to get to work on this log in my eye before I get on the boy cubs about the sawdust chips in their eyes. (Matthew 7:5)

I hear ya, Lord!  Loud and clear!

Living for Him!


Great Might Be Greater

It is eerily quiet in the den right now.  Almost too quiet.  We had to get up early this morning like a regular school day, so I guess everyone is trying to recover before having to go back out again this evening.

Back in November, Cub 2’s homeroom teacher called to talk about his school progress so far, and she asked if we had considered sending him to a magnet school next year.  He hadn’t really talked much about it, but she felt that he should apply and would like the programs that were offered.  After discussing it with Cub 2, we decided that it would be worth a try.  Cub 2 applied for three different programs – a (PVA) performance visual arts program, an (IB) international baccalaureate program, and a STEM (science technology engineering mathematics) program.  This morning, he had an audition for the PVA program which involved playing prepared pieces of music, as well as doing some sight-reading on the snare drum and xylophone.  The second part of his morning was spent in an interview setting in which he had to talk about an artifact of his choosing and how the programs (IB and STEM) would be helpful to him in developing the artifact that he had chosen to bring.  Yesterday, he also had the opportunity to shadow a current 6th grade student at the IB school for the day.  Needless to say, he fell in love with that school after visiting and it is now his first preference.  Here is the issue:  the IB school has 70 seats available, the PVA school has 4 seats available in percussion, and the STEM school has 100 seats available…and thousands of 5th graders who want one of them!  Due to the high number of applicants, there will be a computerized lottery system used to fill the seats.  GAH!!!




So now we wait.

Cub 2 could get invitations to all three schools, or he could not get an invitation to any of the schools.  Either way, we will trust that God wants what is best for Cub 2, and if it isn’t a magnet school program for the next three years, then there is something even better in store!  Acceptance into a magnet program would be great – unless God has something even greater planned!

Whether you are waiting for a door to open, or wondering why an open door was shut BELIEVE God is preparing greater for you!

Living for Him!

Forgiveness: Difficult, but Necessary

Winter break is over.  I was a little sad, but I think all of the cubs were ready to go back to school.  Here’s a quick recap of God’s goodness during our break:

Although, the grandbears gave our cubs everything they requested, PB and I still managed to throw in a few surprises like a new game system for Cubs 2 and 3, a tablet for Cub 4, and Cub 3 was most excited about Juggle Bubbles!




The best part of Christmas Day is dinner!  We eat in the dining room and everyone drinks sparkling apple cider.


I think it’s safe to say that this was PB’s favorite gift this year from his parents.


Cub 2 had a once in a lifetime opportunity to play in a basketball scrimmage at the University of Maryland during halftime of their men’s basketball game.  He had so much fun and the crowd was so supportive of them!  He didn’t score any points, but the whole experience solidified his goal of attending the University of Maryland when he graduates from high school.






We also had a chance to visit the Philly cousins.  Cub 3 loves her time with her favorite cousin, so she wasn’t too happy when we announced that it was time to leave!

We’ve just wrapped up day 2 of being back in our old routine.  Although this second day back at school was one that we won’t soon forget!  Today, a little winter clipper came through our area.  What was thought to be a light dusting ended up being about 2-3 inches of snow and ice.  The county we live in was one of only a few that chose not to close schools.  It was a huge mess and a huge mistake made by the county.  It was very frustrating trying to get my cubs to school this morning.  As parents, we trust that the school system has thoroughly checked out conditions and have made the best choice for our children and their employees.  Today, was not one of those days that I felt the right choice was made.  Many of us made our dissatisfaction known.

Just last night, PB and I were discussing forgiveness.  His position is that you cannot forgive someone who has not asked for forgiveness.  My position is that you have to forgive whether they ask for it or not.

This evening the superintendent of schools released a statement.  Within the body of the statement, the superintendent said, “I am sorry that the day ultimately played out the way it did…”.  Hmmm.  He said, “I am sorry…”.  That does make it easier to forgive and move on.  However, what if there was no letter sent?  What if the county felt they did nothing wrong?  Is it really possible to forgive without a confession that someone has done something wrong to offend you?  I don’t have an answer…yet!  PB really has me thinking and needing to dive into God’s word concerning forgiveness.  I love being stretched by him!

I would love to hear your thoughts on this!  Leave me a comment or something!

Living for Him!